Alexis Belon

six inch walker, big shit talker

Alexis Belon — Wed, 07 Jul 2010 23:26:44 +0000

I was browsing through my pictures from my visit to New York because I was missing my big sister, Liana and came across the photos I snapped from the mini fashion show at her job. My sister works as the stylist at ArtsEcho Galleria , a boutique that specializes in vintage designer clothes and accessories so of course when they threw a fashion show, she got a chance to work her magic. I’m very proud of my big me and although she’s been my personal stylist since I was 13, it’s still exciting to see her visions come to life in editorials and fashion shows. Here’s a few of my favorite looks from the show.

(The detail in this Valentino Dress was so amazing that the model actually owns it now.)

And last, but definitely not least, my beautiful big sister, best friend, protector, advisor, world, in this sexy vintage romper. Isn’t she gorgeous guys? Be sure to check out her blog to stay up to date about her up and coming projects and the online store she’s opening soon :] And also, to those of you in the tri state area, this Friday, the 9th, ArtsEcho Galleria will be celebrating their 2nd anniversary which means 35% off all their amazing merchandise! They’ll also be having a special raffle to one lucky prize winner at 7 pm so make sure you’re there!

I make you smile but you’d rather have what makes you cry.

Alexis Belon — Thu, 01 Jul 2010 01:52:31 +0000

I’m in love with him… but instead of accepting the fact that the feeling isn’t mutual, I feel challenged to pursue him even more. The more he pushes me away, the harder I try. Similar to the way he chased the girl before me when she brushed him off in the same way he shrugged his shoulders at me. With the same disinterested look I give the guy who’s pursuing my heart. Who’s probably also dismissing whoever wants him. It’s one big vicious cycle. Everyone involved wanting what we can not have. Why? Why must we become so intrigued by what’s unattainable to us? Why does the forbidden fruit seem that enticing? Perhaps it’s because relationships at this age are nothing short of huge ego trips.

The fact that someone was genuinely not interested in me was such a direct stab at my own self-worth and pride that when rejected, I felt the need to prove to him that I was worthy. I’m loyal, charismatic, loving, laid back, easy on the eyes and any man who can’t see that must be crazy. When actually faced with this man and his nonchalance towards what I felt for him, my identity was insulted and bruised. ‘What’s wrong with ME?’, I’d ask myself. I thought if only he spent more time with me, he’d realize what a great catch I am. If only given the chance to love him enough, I could make him love me back. So I forced all of that upon him but instead of appreciating the way I loved him, it only smothered him to a point where we couldn’t even end amicably.

Even worse than being on bad terms, the relationship left me feeling very drained and insecure. Though he never demeaned me himself, chasing someone who isn’t effortlessly into you is degrading. Constantly wondering ‘What’s wrong with me?’ caused me to search for the answer myself. I’d look for flaws within my personality and appearance that just may be the reason I wasn’t good enough for him. I ended up despising things about me I never even noticed before. I became the living, breathing version of TLC’s song, ‘Unpretty‘. I still am. Forcing a relationship with someone else potentially destroyed the relationship I have with me.

Kush and Orange Juice

Alexis Belon — Sat, 26 Jun 2010 01:43:06 +0000

I’m just as disappointed with my inconsistency over here at ab.com as you all must be, but life’s been hectic so please excuse my absence. I lost one of my few mother figures recently which caused me to see life in an entirely new perspectve. I don’t want to get morbid on my blog but in the wise words of Kid Cudi, “The moon will illuminate my room and soon I’m consumed by my doom.” To make up for my blatant neglect, I decided to make a video. It’s literally just me rambling about cups, dead birds and children movies but at least you get to see me in motion. The title has absolutely nothing to do with the video; I just so happen to be listening to the mixtape.

Hope you all enjoyed. Comment and subscribe. And please, use this Friday to moonwalk the night away in honor of the thriller maker. I miss you so much, Mike.

Is Anything I’m Doing Brand New?

Alexis Belon — Thu, 10 Jun 2010 22:08:30 +0000

I feel like my blog is a bunch of Carrie Bradshaw-esque columns as opposed to actual updates on what’s happening in my life. I guess that’s why the general consensus of me is so skewed. I usually don’t care what people think of me as long as it’s true but I hate when someones perception of me isn’t the way I actually am. Then again, perhaps being reclusive about what’s personal to me is who I am. Contrary to popular belief, I’m a pretty private person. I never volunteer an explanation to what’s going on in my life. You have to pry for the full story. Most people don’t. Which explains why I feel like most of my relationships with people aren’t reciprocal.

I’m constantly restraining from posting what I want because I’m trying to stick with whatever direction I thought this site was taking. I’m not only limiting myself by ostentatiously thinking things like ‘I can’t post fashion… I’m not a fashion blogger. I’m a writer. And all my entries must be profound.’ but I’m also denying my readers the chance to get to know all aspects of who I am. Yes, I’m a writer… and very analytical. But sometimes I’m completely random, silly and without depth. I want all of it to shine through this creative outlet of mine. Out with the old, and in with the new! Which called for a new layout!

Erm. Kind of. Sort of. Not really. I just edited my old wordpress theme. I came across a few sketches of Gaga one day, hunted down the artist, and found him on deviantart. He turned out to be this really amazing and talented kid from Australia who was more than happy to do a few sketches of me in his unique style. Thanks Scot! Then, the lovely Tiana Chanell offered to vector the drawing when she saw me struggling to find someone to help me with it. I love people who are just willing to help without expecting anything in return. I hope I did your sketch justice, Scot…and I thank you both for being a part of my journey. It’s great to see a simple idea I had in my head come to life, which is exactly what this layout is. I hope to see more of my ideas come to life… on a much grander scale, of course.

(The original drawing.)

The Chronicles of Alexis & Bretony (Part Two)

Alexis Belon — Tue, 18 May 2010 18:23:57 +0000

As usual, me and Bretony never have solid plans when we meet up. We kind of just… go with the flow or go on our own little dummy missions. Which is what I love about her. Our night started off with drinks at Applebees in Times Square but neither of us were satisfied with that and wanted more, so we somehow made our way to dinner at Juliet which quickly went from supper to a club. I know a lot of clubs are restaurants by day but I’ve never seen the tranformation happen. It’s smooth! Anyway, all in all, we had a good night filled with shots, lapdances, subway adventures and breaking day after swearing we weren’t going to stay out. Don’t mind our regular ass attire; we had no idea we were going to end up at a club. So long New York.

As always, you can find more on my flickr.