I really didn’t want to put this video up because the quality is so low and I hate putting anything out half-assed but since it’s such a quick update, I figured I’d give in just this once. It’s been a while since I’ve sat and talked to a camera like a crazy so excuse me if I sound a bit monotone; I felt uncomfortable. Don’t worry, I’ll get back into the groove of things soon enough though. I’m asking for advice so if you have a youtube, PLEASE reply on the actual video, (not here). If you don’t have a youtube, welp, comment here. I look forward to hearing all of your ideas! Oh and if there’s any spiffy webdesigners out there that change my site from what it is to being all of this, feel free to contact me. It’d be great exposure, I promise!

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While I have access to a webcam, here’s a quick explanation to why I haven’t been consistent with my videos like I keep promising :/ Eeek. And heads up, I don’t post every pointless I upload on my blog (just the ones with substance) so I’d highly suggest you subsribe to my youtube so you don’t miss anything. Be sure to leave advice on my hair question video because I certainly need it !

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I really do try to be more consistant with my videos (as I promised) but I’m steady having technical difficulties! If it aint one thing, it’s another…and this time it was the fact that my Sony Vegas Pro 9(yes the stuff the pro’s use) trial expired and I was unable to get another. That, plus my slow ass computer turned an editing task that should’ve been an hour into a full day ordeal. Editing in Windows Movie Maker is a pain in the ass and honestly, I’m amazed I managed to pull this off. Naturally, the quality isn’t as HD as it would’ve been if I used my usual program but it’ll have to do for now. I’m looking for video responses with this video but if you don’t have a camera, feel free to comment on the video and it’d be mucho appreciated. Enjoy.

“9 to 5 is how you survive, I aint tryna survive – I’m trying to live it to the limit and love it a lot.”

Tribute Video for my biggest inspiration, an Icon; The King of Pop – Michael Jackson.

It’s official – my childhood is over. And it took the death of an icon for me to realize this. The man who was embedded in so many of my childhood memories passed away this Thursday and took a piece of my soul with him. My memories span from Pop (RIP) giving me and my brother, Mario a good spanking at 3 years old when we tried to emulate the dance from ‘The way you make me feel’ and he thought we were “being fresh” humping the floor all the way to practicing the dance to ‘Rock My World’ at 15 years old with my best friend NahTesha at the peak of our friendship. His death hit closer to home than I ever imagined a celebrity death could.

I know it might seem like I’m exaggerating but I know what it’s like to have people all over the world relate to you and see greatness in you and still not have a soul on earth to turn to. I too, deal with issues of self-worth and I know first hand what it means to be consumed with loneliness. I experience what it’s like to suffer from Peter Pan syndrome because you grew up too fast and to find refuge in the innocence of kids because the law of love could be best understood and learned through little children. I too believe that love can heal the world. And of course, I’m misunderstood and I truly believe I can relate to Michael in a way a lot of people can’t. It breaks my heart knowing I’ll never have the opportunity to meet him to let him know what an impact he’s had on my life like I’ve always planned to.

The mainstream media makes me want to vomit focusing on the not-so-great aspects of his life instead of acknowledging and praising all the contributions he made to the entire world. This man single-handedly bridged race, genre and age gaps while also redefining the art of entertainment. He was bringing black and white together before both Barack Obama and Oprah and it’s my belief that neither of them would be where they are if he hadn’t already changed the worlds perception of black people by acting so royally and genuine. Do ya’ll understand dance, music, performances and music videos would not be where it’s at now if it weren’t for him being the innovator? He upped the ante and created the style of dance that can be found in all your favorite artist performances today. He’s the one celebrity in the world that my grandmother, my father and myself will mourn together. And lastly but not least, not only did he use his music as a tool to raise awareness about all the world issues that concerned him – he really put his money where his mouth was and donated millions.

How heart wrenching is it that someone with such great intentions who lead a completely selfless life, giving up all the things we take for granted just to entertain us ended so tragically? A deprived childhood, a society that bullied him, allegations that ruined his reputation, and a level of fame that suffocates you because coping with worldwide fame makes you become reclusive, lonely, cautious and pressured. Then death at a fairly young age? Damn, I just can’t accept that I’m never going to be able to see him live in concert. It was one of those things I just knew I’d do before I died and it breaks my heart that my dreams are shattered. And quite frankly, I’m sad that my children will grow up in a post-michael era and he’ll just be a legend to them… so unborn children – I want you to know – for the first 22 years of my life, I witnessed GREATNESS in it’s purest form. I love you Michael.

Since I steal internet from my neighbors, I unfortunately don’t have a strong enough connection to catch Joe Budden’s live stream so you can imagine my surprise when a friend emailed me this video of him on blogtv mentioning me. Awww ;] I don’t appreciate him referring to me as a bitch but I’m his “favorite fuckin’ person in the world to follow” on twitter – which is why all of you should too ! – http://twitter.com/alexisbelon – Having my favorite rapper in the world be familiar with who I am is truly dope and what’s even better, I credit all my internet fame to him. Because half of you wouldn’t know who I am if I hadn’t made a video about his ass. ILU mouse <3

‘Little Bit’ by Drake & Lykke Li happens to be one of my favorite songs of all time – it just has that way of hitting the soul and the lyrics are just too…just too relatable. So to come across this seriously made my day. Their cover is amazziiinngg. And who cares that they re-did a remix?! It really makes me happy to see people still out there doing it solely for the love of music. And on a flippin’ ukulele? Are you kidding me? Killin’ it early! Peep more of their videos here.  Their ‘Knock You Down’ one was crazy and he does a lot of Drake covers from the So Far Gone mixtape so you already know I find that dope.

i hope they never find out
what they already know, know, know
as soon as its official
we’ll have to let it go, go, go
so we don’t confirm the fling
keep avoiding all the questions
you can teach me many things
i’m just scared to learn a lesson