I can’t sit here and mistake his infatuation with me for genuine interest.
Sure, he wants to fight every dude that even glances in my direction so much that I avoid being around him in public; but that’s not out of concern, he’s just possessive. And that’s all I am to him – a posession, a prize, a trophy. Something to show off to all his friends and give them that ‘look what I bagged’ look. He’s comparing me to his exes and to him having me is one helluva upgrade. He can’t keep his hands off me but that’s not interest, it’s lust. I can tell you his life story and I know things about him one shouldn’t even know this soon. You know why? Because I am sincerely trying to get to know him… so I ask.
Now go ahead and ask him anything about my parents, my siblings, my hobbies, my interests, my living situation and how I ended up in it. Betcha he’d be stumped. He doesn’t inquire to know anything about me because he just doesn’t give a fuck. Now ask him if he wants me to be his girl. The answer will inevitably be yes. He says “I want you to myself” as if that should bring me comfort. It doesn’t; you just want to own me. But my question is – since when does being conventionally pretty mean I have nothing more to offer than being the eye candy for you arm? I’m more than just a thing to look at, ya’know.
I understand that most people considered beautiful by society’s standards are typically self-absorbed assholes who aren’t working on their character. But some of us are! I am a person, with morals, ideas, opinions, and philosophies that are always changing and you should want to experience this growth with me. If you’re not intrigued by the person I was, the person I am, and the person I’m becoming – then you’re simply not interested in me. Don’t waste my time.
oh! I decided to get back into photography. it’s only a hobby that I do w/a simple point & shoot camera but who knows? it could grow into somethin’ bigger. afterall, i’m a lot better than these fools w/ slrs that their parents bought who take pics of nothing but themselves and food
peep my photography flickr here.
August 8th, 2009 at 9:33 pm
Well how do you feel about him? Does the fact that he look at you with the eyes of infatuation bother you rather than staring at you with the eyes of love and understanding?
Sometimes it’s best to stand back and analyze a situation to find that one solution.
P.S. Nice photo too.
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August 8th, 2009 at 10:11 pm
you can touch my special place
grab my no no
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August 9th, 2009 at 1:42 am
i like that….especially considering that type of dude was ME a few years ago…could tell you her measurements and not her birthday, her favorite position and not her favorite author…..but hey, great men like me, we’re not BORN that good, we’re shaped by experience and know better over time….
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August 9th, 2009 at 4:40 pm
I’ve come to learn that if a man claims he cares about you, but knows nothing about you, it’s just part of his game to entertain his lust for you. You don’t know me, where I’m from or where I’m going. So how can you care about me?
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August 10th, 2009 at 1:55 am
“But my question is – since when does being conventionally pretty mean I have nothing more to offer than being the eye candy for you arm? ”
i couldn’t have said it better myself. It seems to me it’s all any guy cares about. And you can tell these types of guys off the back. All they care is about what you look like and they don’t even care to find out about what type of person you really are. The only time they want to even hear you speak is if you’re going to feed their ego. You were speaking the truth, girl.
I llike your photography. Keep it up
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August 10th, 2009 at 6:19 pm
idk what to say after reading this – im rendered speechless at the fact that you were able to sum up my own feelings as well as yours, so eloquently.
anything i think of to say, sound silly in comparison, lol props.
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